Normal Porn

I finally also started to stumble across normal porn. Remember, these were the days before the Internet. Finding porn was not that easy for a teenager, but I happened to be able to discover one or the other magazine here and there. The images contained in this "normal porn" continued to arouse me and formed an ever-growing source of inspirational material about how I could look and act as a girl.

It was also in this period that my crossdressing confirmed itself. Having no clothes at my disposal, around the age of 14 I started to use some of my Mom's clothes to play. I remember the day I tried my first panthyhose. The touch and the feeling of this sweet material around my legs, which suddenly looked far more feminine was a huge turn-on. I basiclly played with some bras and panties, lipstick and earrings and so on. Often I would also add a SM side to my solo-plays, in the form of whipping my butt, playing with hot wax or clothes peg. I was discovering this delightful mix of pain and pleasure. Sometimes I would als call a phone sex line, but the fantasies in my head were far stronger.