Working on my looks

Here are a few shots of the times when I was in training with my mistress. I won't show more of these times, in order to protect her privacy. It is just to document her work on my figure and my appearance at that time.

The Mistress

She was a Dominatrix. I did not know it. We had common friends. We met. We liked each other. We fell in love. We became a couple. We discovered our common sexual fantasies.

She trained me. I became her slut for two very long years.

She tied me up very often.

She spanked me quite a lot.

She made me walk on high heels.

She dressed me up and made me wear sexy outfits

She made me be her maid and clean her kitchen.

She gave me make-up lessons.

She took pictures of me.

She trained my ass with vibrators and dildos.

She even got herself a strap-on dildo and trained me to suck it and fucked me with it quite regulalry.

She wanted to go further.

She wanted to offer me to men.
Preferably black men.



She wanted me to become a slut.

Her slut.

But our love did not last.
We parted.
But remains in my memory one of the best experience.
An experience that many Tv's in the scene dream about having with their own wife.

But I had to go another way, life had other plans for me.

Dressing-up

After the age of 18, I was finally legally allowed to enter sex-shops. That's how I started to build up my girl's wardrobe, as I did not yet have the guts to go shopping for girl's clothes in normal shops. I had the impression that in a sex-shop, I could easily pass as a guy buying some stuff for his girlfriend. More interestingly was also the fact that I could buy very sexy outfits in all kinds of materials, ranging from latex and leather, to simple maid or schoolgirl uniforms.

My crossdressing thus improved, as I could play with different attire. This was also the time when I started to make first pictures of myself. It was however only a faceless (but I guess you can tell sexy) body for the moment...

Learning to Pleasure Myself Differently

Around the age of 18 to 22 the Internet continued to be a major source of inspiration for my fantasies. But next to that I also started to think about something. If real girls were having (and enjoying) anal sex, there surely had to be something to it. And fortunately, this is one form of penetration that a male can also experience, if they want to. Being naturally curious, and of course attracted to what happens to girls, I couldn't resist but to start playing with my ass, or what will soon become my sissy-pussy...


That's how, next to my occasional fucking of my first girlfriends as a male, my schizophrenic crossdress behavior and my frantic masturbating in front of shemale porn, I also started to play with my ass, to finger myself and to penetrate it with all kinds of phallic objects I could find. I was however, not yet, fantasizing about a male's dick or by being penetrated by a male. I was basically just experiencing anal pleasure, like a girl.

Online Videos

With the improvement of Internet connection speed, it was also soon possible to have access to online shemale porn videos. This of course made me spend even more time online. It was really exciting to discover those sexy creatures and their way of having sex. So hot!

Filling My Head With Pictures

When I was between 15 and 18 years old, my crossdressing activites slightly decreased. Now that there was the Internet, orgasms were far easier available than when I had to look for time behind the back of my parents to dress.

On the Internet I stumbled across tons of material, which ranged from transvestism, shemale, transexuals, ladyboys, hermaphrodites, BDSM, Bondage, Femdom, all kinds of fetishes and, most importantly, forced feminization. In this case it wasn't pictures, but rather stories of men getting feminized. Forced feminization was the ultimate material, it brought together everything I liked. It was Janice applied to shemales. I sent hours reading fictional stories of forced feminization. And the pictures of shemale and BDSM I was collecting from all over the Internet served as an additional inspiration to my fantasies.

Opening The Treasure Trove

And finally...
The Internet!

I was around 16 years old when I got my first personnal computer with internet access. This meant that, contrary to the Internet access at school, I could go and look for sexual content. While my first journeys on the search for arousal over the internet basically dealt with heterosexual sex, or high heels, boots and stocking fetish, one day however I stumbled across something I had never seen before... A girl with breast and a dick! I was totally baffled. So, these tales I had heard about girls with penises were true. But wait... this was not a girl with a penis. These were former men that were completley transformed (or almost).

This meant that that what I had been fantasizing about since my early teens was possible. A man could become a creature like this. The day I saw pictures of shemales for the first time, I told myself: "I think I have found the porn I like".

Since the world of shemales opened to me, it remained until today my major source of masturbation material. I have been masturbating so much to shemale porn, that when I see a picture of a real girl with a clit, it feels strange and wrong to me; something is lacking.